[ Contentment ]

God has been showing me so many things over the past few months. God has especially been working in me the past month. I have been fortunate to be able be able to physically walk away from "the world." There is nothing wrong with the United States, but I am sure many of you will agree with me that many of the stress that you have in life... money, being quick, not slowing down, working lots of hours and never getting ahead, is items that we as humans face in this world that we can not get away from in the United States. And many of you are so very strong and brave, and you walk away from that stuff right where you live. Oh, how I envy that! I wish I could of walked away from it all when I was in the States. But it took me moving across the world to finally find myself and to have a deep, true love relationship with Jesus Christ. I pray that one day I can be as strong as many of you, who live in the States and can have this relationship.

I have learned how weak I am, how undeserving I am, and how much I truly need Jesus Christ in my life. Of course, I have always KNOWN these things. But for the first time in a long time I have been able to experience these items.

To see the sun rise and set almost every night, to see how truly big the world, and to be able to see such beautiful nature around me as shown me how small I am and how big God is. I am nothing compared to the magnitude of Him. And yet, God cares so much for me. And yes, God cares so much about you. He has made this entire world: the continents, the rivers, the oceans, the sea animals, and yet...He made made "good," ..."very good."

Its been so easy to see all of my faults, all of my sins, and all of my weakness here. I thank God that He has shown me these weaknesses so that I can build myself up into an even strong woman of God. I am nothing but thankful that even after everything I have done in my life...all the miss-ups, the mistakes I have done on accident, and especially the mistakes that I did knowing full well I was doing wrong, were all forgiven...all of them. And God, God has forgiven each and every one of your sins...the big and the small. We were so undeserving, but God did send His son. And Jesus died on the cross...just for you and me. Oh how thankful I am that He did this.

I truly need Jesus. I can not live one day, one moment, one second without Him. Oh how I have had to rely on Him more than anything else in this world. When I miss my family, He is there. When I miss my friends, He is there. When I mess up, He is there. When I am alone, He is there. When I really really really want that McChicken sandwhich with no lettuce, He is there (Sorry, had to put that in ....). God is HERE. GOD IS WITH YOU RIGHT NOW. Right beside you as you read this blog. His hand is on your shoulder and He is saying, "How I love you my dear child. How I love you." He is fighting for you.

I hope in the middle of this that you are encouraged by my words. Without a doubt the journey has been hard, but oh so beautiful. I thank God for this journey. He is molding and working in me every single day.

I am but a great sinner, in need of a great Saviour.

May all the glory, and honour, go to our Great God!